Written:
May 26, 2020
Grand Manan Island
The reason I have chosen at 56 years of age to become a Yoga Teacher is simple
I want others to feel as good as I do.
I want to help others.
Sure,I still have days that I can’t get out of my own way & get in a funk,however,it’s different now.
Its been nearly 2 years now since I first stepped into a yoga studio here where I live.My only wish is that I found Yoga earlier in time,however,I feel that Yoga found me,when the timing was meant to be.
Where would I even begin to share how my life has changed,enriched & more peaceful then I can ever remember.
I have spent my life being a giver. Much like any “ma” out there or “pa” that raises children alone .
Single working mom who was but a child herself emotionally.
Life starts to come to a place where my sons are men with families of their own.I have a relationship with a really great guy.I even have a job I like with a great boss & work family.
Don’t get me wrong,loss of parents,loved ones & emotional experiences like my baby boy giving the gift of his kidney to save his love,would sent me into that spiral of panic at times that I could not breath-sleep & had such underlying sadness that would easily be triggered.Still ghosts to face.
Then there’s this daily struggle.
Not one to handle unkind people to the point that gossip & malicious people would make me physically hurt.Exhaust me . Hurt.
Recall being told over the years “You care too much about other people.You try to “FIX” everyone”.
You know what,they were right in one sense.
I DO love others.I DO care.I DO want to help others.
After many years of being told this was a weakness ,it was one thing I did not see as one.
“Love thy neighbor”-” Do unto others as you would have done to you”.Are they not Golden Rules.
So,I went to the yoga class.I wrote about this in earlier post.
I went to the meditations.
I studied yoga.
I read.I wrote.I listened.
Slowly things started to change.
Anxiety & panic attacks lessened.
Physical pain in others actions lessened. I say this that it “lessened”-however-to date,I cannot be around negative,emotionally draining toxicity.I don’t think many can without it hurting.
There is much to share of this journey ,so,I shall save more for another post.Another part of my journey.I will tell you this.I chose to begin this journey & to become a yoga teacher as I want to share the gift I have been given.
You could say I wanna “fix” or I care too much,as I’ve heard.
You are right. I DO.
However,instead of immersing myself in pain I now have tools to share that help.Not just my caring how you feel.I’m not a counsellor.
I’m someone who cares. A friend.Share the tools I am learning.
Tools of Self love & Growth.
Tools to sleep at night,to stop anxiety & to get to know YOU.
This is why I have chosen being a Yoga Instructor at 56 years of age.
My hope is one day,I will have helped someone come to this beautiful journey of awareness & self love & peace .
Even if it’s one person.. YOU
PS: I still don’t do headstands..lol.
Love & Light
